Been a few weeks since I posted anything. At first, I wanted to just let my Father's Day post settle in. A lot of meaning went into that. I wanted to give people time to read it and perhaps think of their own fathers, whether they were close to them or not. I didn't want to post just any old thing just so I could post.
The other part of that though, is I kind of hit a writers' block. Ideas came to me but none that really resonated with me. If something doesn't resonate, then I won't write. I could come up with a sentence or two but beyond that, it would have been just a bunch of words on a page; that's not me. I type what I think, without much editing or "censoring". If I have something that I feel "needs" saying, I'll say it. If it's not worth the effort, then I'll just disregard it; no sense annyoing or angering people if they don't have the ears to hear.
And then today, I went on Facebook. Rare occurence for me as I don't go there very often. I'm more of a Twitter gal. But I did. I connected with someone I had not seen in quite a few years. She was a gal that I used to go to church with. Beautiful inside and out, with a smile that lights up a room. We sang together in the choir; she had a phenomenal voice. Feels like so long ago. Those were special, fun times for me.
She's doing well. Singing for the Lord; about to have a release on iTunes in a few days. It took awhile to get there but she's doing it. And for some odd reason, she said I inspired her.
The mere thought of ME inspiring someone just does not work in my brain. I see myself as such a highly flawed individual that I sometimes am hesitant to take any compliments from people. Okay, truth be told, I really hate compliments and it's very hard for me to believe people when they say something good about me. (Yes, God is working on me continually in this area).
Her words though really made me stop and think. What affect have I had on people throughout my life? Have I had a positive effect like that? Or have my words and actions had quite the opposite? Did words I say speak "life" into someone along the way? Or did (do) my words speak "death" or "negativity" into them? Do I help or hurt?
I wish I could say that I "always" spoke (speak) positively with life words for people, but I can't. Nobody can. We're human. We react with human feelings and emotions. Sometimes life can get the best of us and we react. That's not an excuse or a reason, it's just fact. We are human. We are sinners, prone to sin. Life often has a way of giving you a Christianity tune-up and that's when you find out what your condition is.
Do we lean on God? Do we lean on ourselves? Do we lean on our past experience? I don't remember what I said to my friend. Never would I have thought that I had any affect on her like that. I was going through some major stuff during that time so for me to speak those words, really speaks volumes about the Lord working through me. That's a good thing.
It's good because it shows me that God used me in that way back then. It's good because it reminds me of what He does when I make Him a priority. It's good because I need these little reminders every once in awhile that God does work "through" me. I'm not so bad after all huh? =)
Thank you God.
Until next time,
RSPS Sunny
The other part of that though, is I kind of hit a writers' block. Ideas came to me but none that really resonated with me. If something doesn't resonate, then I won't write. I could come up with a sentence or two but beyond that, it would have been just a bunch of words on a page; that's not me. I type what I think, without much editing or "censoring". If I have something that I feel "needs" saying, I'll say it. If it's not worth the effort, then I'll just disregard it; no sense annyoing or angering people if they don't have the ears to hear.
And then today, I went on Facebook. Rare occurence for me as I don't go there very often. I'm more of a Twitter gal. But I did. I connected with someone I had not seen in quite a few years. She was a gal that I used to go to church with. Beautiful inside and out, with a smile that lights up a room. We sang together in the choir; she had a phenomenal voice. Feels like so long ago. Those were special, fun times for me.
She's doing well. Singing for the Lord; about to have a release on iTunes in a few days. It took awhile to get there but she's doing it. And for some odd reason, she said I inspired her.
The mere thought of ME inspiring someone just does not work in my brain. I see myself as such a highly flawed individual that I sometimes am hesitant to take any compliments from people. Okay, truth be told, I really hate compliments and it's very hard for me to believe people when they say something good about me. (Yes, God is working on me continually in this area).
Her words though really made me stop and think. What affect have I had on people throughout my life? Have I had a positive effect like that? Or have my words and actions had quite the opposite? Did words I say speak "life" into someone along the way? Or did (do) my words speak "death" or "negativity" into them? Do I help or hurt?
I wish I could say that I "always" spoke (speak) positively with life words for people, but I can't. Nobody can. We're human. We react with human feelings and emotions. Sometimes life can get the best of us and we react. That's not an excuse or a reason, it's just fact. We are human. We are sinners, prone to sin. Life often has a way of giving you a Christianity tune-up and that's when you find out what your condition is.
Do we lean on God? Do we lean on ourselves? Do we lean on our past experience? I don't remember what I said to my friend. Never would I have thought that I had any affect on her like that. I was going through some major stuff during that time so for me to speak those words, really speaks volumes about the Lord working through me. That's a good thing.
It's good because it shows me that God used me in that way back then. It's good because it reminds me of what He does when I make Him a priority. It's good because I need these little reminders every once in awhile that God does work "through" me. I'm not so bad after all huh? =)
Thank you God.
Until next time,
RSPS Sunny
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